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11 aprile Rantings of Theological Concerns and Misguided Spirituality.Ah, the blog. Never really feel like its time to take a nice blog, but tonight I find myself full of blog. The recent days have brought a renewed strength to the local body of Christ in Coldsprings. I thank the Lord for what he is stirring up and I thank him that I get to be involved in another great thing. The oncoming rush of what God is doing always brings up the possibility of people getting caught up in it (flesh) and ending up being caught up in where it didnt really go. The first red flag happens in the sense that some believe it must be wild in some fashion to truly be a defining revival moment. This makes me sad as I see people with a need to see something wild. It is as if being in God's Presence is simply not enough. It is as if they at heart find their lives sad and boring, this bringing them to the point of needing a chance to unleash an act in stark disagreement of how they really feel. Sometimes a feeling is just that, a feeling. Sometimes a dream is just a dream. Mix in this with unchecked prophets and you get the beginning of the end.
The opposite of this is of course the traditional control agent. The control agency also stems from a need for some sort of additional feelings of worth and calm. Too much change at once, just pause things they say. Is this revival moving beyond you and your position? Just try to direct God towards your position or calling. Still feel unhappy and insignificant just go up to option 1 above and go crazy for a bit.
The full understanding and answer to these threats is relying on the Word of God and accepting God's love as fulfilling your worth. Basically this side of heaven you are just a pile of crap, until you realize that and now you are a redeemed piece of crap relying on grace to make you golden. The full acceptance of grace puts you in a place where you only want to see the Kingdom of God advance, and quite frankly you find yourself not even caring if you had anything to do with it. I believe that the problem most churchs face is in fact the release of control and the full reliance on God's Rightousness and Grace working in your life. The lack of this is fear and insecurity which lead to oneself grasp for control measure on both sides of crazyness and anality (made up word). Or for the truly schitzo a hand on both controls.
Faith in faith kills the advancement. Faith in oneself to obtain a higher measure of holiness kills growth through a sense of defeat and then ultimately the turn to criticalness. Been there done that. Not the faith part though, just the striving. Give up and enjoy people. It is one with the heart of a child that enters in. Big tip to you all, Never Lose The Wonder. It is revelation that creates and promotes the understanding of how great our God is. The understanding throws you into bigger faith and with that increased annointing in the realm of advancing kingdom.
The reason I find myself discussing this is because I am returning to Toronto after 4 years. In these four years I find myslef daily wondering why this isn't happening elsewhere indefinately. Martin Smith of Delirious stated just recently that they did not foresee being Delirious this long. He exopected seven other Delirious's to pop up and go from there. Why? I think people are hung up on that stuff I just ranted through. My problem is that I think I have adopted the theology that has people doing nothing but waiting. I call this "Conquered Jew Syndrome."
The Jews found themselves pawns of the Babylonians, Persians, Hellenistic Greece, Romans, and then Diaspora and the Ghettos. The point being they stayed the path of just waiting for the Messiah to come through and kick the Western Worlds butt. When they got sad and impatient of waiting they turned to the two methods of control above. I am at that lull of waiting and I am not stepping it up. I have denied half of my calling for the last 4 years and sat idley on the side. I am hoping an honest open heart and Toronto mixed together will again set direction and refuel the prophetic flames within this Jeremiah. It is my hope that as my college career is done, I find a Real (God called me to teach) job and marry Kara, God will help me get over it and step up.
Ultimately we will see. As I said these concerns are in my mind, not fears mind you, just slight thoughts in the back. I will watch and I will act. Well this is my rant. Perhaps entertaining, hopefully informing and interesting. Toronto is calling and I believe it is a destined time once again for me. The place of very heavy Presence and a balance of order to boot. Hoorah to the future.
Brett Jeremiah Bontrager
15 marzo One Week LaterSo yeah I havent added anything lately because I have not felt motivated to. However I have also subbed 4 consecutive school days so I have been busy. Plus I went to Marquette. Yeah. Well i am done for now but I may add later. I could rant about comics I am getting but then Justin would get mad and he is a great disciple. Oh well, until later. 08 marzo Music Lists AddedIn an attempt to create informative fun I have posted the songs done here at Living Word on Live Music (Sat. and Sun.) days. It is your job now to suggest songs for our services that we dont use. If it is cool and passes through prayer and BJ you may very well see it soon. Anway the lists come from the Discs passed out throughout the last few years. I cant get the order of the discs right though. I will figure it out here an dthen you can rate my lists. Oh yeah that is sooooo cool dawg.
Weekend passed by and it was fun.Well I had a splendid last week that culminated in a spectacular weekend. I subbed 4 of the 5 school days last week and it was great. Well kinda great. I had three days of Elementary. Not my first choice but I am not one to complain with work days given to me. So I had a busy week. Friday I got off of work and went out into the glorious sun and picked up my stuff I packed and Kara saw me off. I got on the road and loved a bright sunny drive for a change. A little David Crowder to send me off and then a little Brad Paisley til home. Thats right Brad Paisley. Now you may be asking yourself "Isnt he country?" Yep he is but I like him for some reason. I was introduced to him on a CMT show called Crossroads where they take musicians from different styles and have them play together. Well he was on with John Mayer so of course I watched it. I was like wow this guy is a good guitar player, singer and songwriter. So of course like any good American young adult would do I downloaded his last CD. It rocked. Its got a lot of country cheese lines but when they come from him they at least seem real and it makes me grin. A lot of clever fun songwriting reminiscient of Reliant K or Superchick songwriting. Of course he touches on old school country, which if I listen to country I want old school guitar things or strong lyrics. I am saying this however that I think on a whole todays country music is lame and been done a million times. Sheesh, like I could even know that. Anyway this brings me to my weekend event of my Gram and Gramp T's 50th Anniversary. My clearest recollections of my Grandparents is me going down to their house in the summer ,cuz we were always bored, and playing. My Grampa would be there and he would have his country music on. With him it was always the classics. Hank Williams, Johnny Cash, Loretta Lynn, Merle Haggard and etc. Anyways this was the music I heard the most growing up. I mean my mom listened to really lame stuff like Sandi Patti and other gay 80's christian contemporary. So usually didnt stick around for that stuff. Of course my cousins Joel and Jasyn had Micheal Jackson, which was played while we played Super Mario Brothers and Contra. Well that is my walk down musical memory lane. So yeah I like teh Brad Paisley CD. Another great thing about this weekend is that I have an awesome family. They really rock. All of them. You know usually in families you have a cousin or uncle that nobody likes or something. Not here. I had a great time just hanging out with cousins this weekend. Special shout out to Adam and Steve who went to Pondo. Oh yeah, also I found out that Pondo can make a really not great steak. I have had plenty of wonderful steaks there but the one they gave me this weekend blew. It was ok. If Justin had made it it would have sizzled right down into my happy stomach. Unfortunately it was not made by Justin. That is ok because that made it possible for Justin to dine with us. Anyway my family rocks and I am very blessed. Also Ryan did a cool version of a hymn on Sunday that rocked too. So yeah I look forward to subbing the next two day and I look forward to Ryan and Justin joining us again for another amazing Acts 2:17 service. Until next time make mine Lime Coke.
28 febbraio Destroyed network cords, Lime Coke and the Jewish Race.So yeah my network cord is gone. It needs to be network cord circumcised again and I dont have the tools for it. I must find help. I have actually been getting subbing time in and I am delighted, it teases me with the prospect of getting caught up and out of debt. I know someday when I have a real job I will get caught up and stuff but geez it would be nice. I guess this summer I will have to be hardcore with getting more hours in at Tangleweed. One of my sub adventures is the reaction of students who see me reading "A History of the Jews." They are like "Why are you reading a Jew book?" Well this woudl be fine if they were like 9 or something (I must type a great Seth story sometime). Its like, ok, you live in the UP and are taught that diversity is great and blah blah. But yet it is ok for a minority race to rip on another minority race. These people have mever met a single Jewish person in their life and they are like "heil, Eric Cartman" and they laugh at Jews and make gay comments toward them. Bah. In fact I had to explain to one class that Jews are a race not just a religion. This of course speaks to the great job that Brimley does with world history I guess. Anyway the book rocks and I have even more respect for the Jewish people. However, this book has given me an even greater revelaton of my God through history. The old testament has come alive for me again. YAHWEH is faithful and wise beyond all our understanding and thoughts. When I read teh history that accompanies the bible all I can say is God is a total genius. Yeah and I love the new Lime Coke. It is a elixir of warmth and happiness. Get some and try it today. So again I must say that I had a fun weekend with the cuzes even though I was getting over sickness and was tired. Praise and Worship rocked out, thanks to our God, on both days this weekend so that rejunevated me personally. Every week I never know what to expect but I am glad I can just hang on and go. Saturday night was the best again. I look forward to April 1st and Summer camp and I reall look forward to the Conference we will be putting on Late summer up here. It will be a blast and it will be life changing. This weekend will be a homecoming for me and I am happy as I have not been home in a bit. Grampa and Gramma's 50th. I will stay some extra time probably til monday morning. If I dont have to sub, that is. Anyone who reads this can pray for more sub days for me to help along my finances. Everyday is a blessing. Also pray for me as I consider and pray through an important conversation I must have with a friend. It will be an interesting and good conversation but I need courage to actually go through with it. I am a much softer BJ now than the hard edged prophet out of control BJ of before, so this is harder for me to do now. I must find a happy medium for myself and not ignore anointings and gifts. I must pay attention and not dismiss the dreams and the discernment. Part of me misses that stuff, but it is as if I was supposed to come up here and chill out a bit. However certain subjects have gotten me fired up again. Well that sums up my state of being for the time. Until next time make mine Lime Coke. 22 febbraio Sunsets and SushiWell for all that care I now have David Crowder Band "Sunsets and Sushi." It is the best disc I have heard in awhile. Extremely brilliant, and I use brilliant sparingly. Brilliant is when something is so creative and perfect all at once. So word up ya'll get this CD. On a downer I am still sick as I have been since Friday, and it got worse yesterday and is still quite unhappy with me today. It wears me out and my throat kills. Sunday God came through as always and gave me an ok throat for time and now it is back to rotten. I will just trust again as I have to lead tomorrow night because somebody else has a sore throat too. Join the club Mr. Bling, suck it up and deal Hip-hop. Lynn and I are throat soreness troopers up there. Trust in God and it is all good. Anyway I watched Constantine and thought it was extremely swell, pretty close to being brilliant So yeah here I sit really bored backing up files onto DVD's to make more room on my ever shrinking but now expanding hardrive. I have a lot of sweet live John Mayer at incredible bitrates. The joys of DSL and FTP technologies. Well I am going to lay down and get rest and get a couple lists for tomorrow made. I must be in top shape for this weekend so I can go up levels on xbox live and experience another powerful Acts 2:17 service. Shalom out. 17 febbraio Yeah, I subbed today.So yeah I subbed again today and the kicker is I got paid to watch Napoleon Dynamite. It was probably the best thing I ever got paid for. I subbed for a teacher that ran quiz bowl and actually had a run in with quiz bowlers from Engadine and was suprised to see familiar faces from camp. It also looks like my wonderful Senior Project gets kicked off tomorrow too as I get to meet with Prof. Schacher and figure it out. I have a lot of crap in my throat though and I fell like poo also. Thank you Kara I cannot get above an 11 again in Halo. I decided to join a clan to help them out an dwe are moving up decently. Then in a few weeks Team Bontrager can be reunited and make our Minor Clan ranking go up. Heil Team Bontrager. Well dawg I guess it is time for me to go kick it on the west side with my homies. Peace out nigs, Notorious |
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